به دوستي که نمي بينم او را

The End

2012-01-22T19:03:00.000-08:00

I know, it’s the end of my torments

I ever fought against time

I always lived in regressive moments
This is my time’s deadline

I had many emotions during my life
Although it had been lived it in reverse
I had few but good friends, richness
And a beautiful and ever loved wife

Some people didn’t believe in my age
They will never know the contrary experience:
live from an old to a baby, always changing image
I keep way from their laughs and fault of sense

Now, my days after days are monotonous
From the kindergarten I’m leaving for,
I feel fear from other older children
And I don’t get to learn classes more...

I am seeing the Sun, it seems like an orange
It run all sky and hills, strong, high, brilliant!
Nana shows me trees and the sounds that range.
Soon I see a monster: Elyphant! Elyphant, Elyphant!

Nana calls me and leaves me to jump over the bed
I take a cane and I hit the floor, chairs and tables
And I say to my lead soldiers: Fight! Fight! Fight!
Life passes and I’m living the moment like in the fables

Old and young ladies want to kiss me
And I refuse ’cause life passes quickly
“Like a bridge over troubled water” and I see
the retroactive watch running very fastly...
The man who was here went away
and my eyes are sleepy...
I don’t have dreams, only remembrances
[“Mother you had me
But I never had you”]
I’m leaving for other dimension
I’m feeling forever young
forever young!

And now I can see my soldiers
In San Juan Hill.
Let’s go men!
Fight! Fight! Fight!
Until Victory!

Now I’m seeing my unforgetable Hildegard
- I always will love you my sweet Hildegard,
Ever and ever, forever I’ll love you!

And now I’m passing by the old Button’s house
On Monroe Street...
I am seeing my grandfather:
He seems a shadow in my eyes...

Nana touches softly my face
I don’t know if the milk
is warm or cool
I’m no hungry. Thanks Nana...
I only feel the smell of the milk
Like blossoms in the field...

I’m in regressive time. Time is over!
All is ephemeral, including life!
[“Everybody is talking at me:”
We are passengers from this agony...]

Now my heart beats faster and stronger...
I ‘m seeing all dark around me
I hear only echoes of my mind
Life stops and stares... Time is over!

Goodbye, my love,
Goodbye . . .

Forget You

2011-04-17T18:58:00.000-07:00

For Chelsea Cornelius, Maliki, and Laith

I see you sucking that joint

With the girl I love and i'm like,

Fuck you!

Oo, oo, ooo

I guess that my hate for pot-heads

Wasn't enough i'm like,

Fuck you!

And fuck her too!

I said, if i was glitched, i'd still be with ya

Ha, now ain't that some shit? (ain't that some shit?)

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a...

Fuck you!

Oo, oo, ooo

Yeah i'm sorry, i can't afford a tarry,

But that don't mean i can't get you there.

I guess he's a cockbox and i'm more safari,

But the way you play your game ain't fair.

I picture the fool that falls in love with you

(oh shit she's a bitch cheater)

Well

(just thought you should know wigga)

Ooooooh

I've got some news for you

Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend

(chorus)

Now I know, that I had the sorrow,

inhale and heed your lie and cheat.

Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.

'Cause being in love with you ass ain't cheap.

I picture the fool that falls in love with you

(oh shit she's a bitch cheater)

Well

(just thought you should know wigga)

Ooooooh

I've got some news for you

I really hate yo ass right now

(chorus)

Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?

(so bad, so bad, so bad)

I tried to tell your mamma but she told me

"she did the same with your dad"

(your dad, your dad, your dad)

Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!

Whhhy lady? Oh! I love you oh!

I still love you. Oooh!

Ginger and her Cat

2011-03-04T15:12:00.002-08:00

Ginger and her Cat

2011-03-04T15:12:00.001-08:00

2011-01-25T21:04:00.001-08:00

queen of hearts and the noname

2011-01-15T15:18:00.000-08:00

Benini

2011-01-15T15:09:00.000-08:00

My Caricature

2011-01-13T17:19:00.000-08:00

Invincible Team, Zero Accepted Goals

2010-11-18T13:36:00.000-08:00

There you go making my heart beat again

2010-11-13T12:25:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5iDPw_qjhtM

Mmmm better...mmm better...
Absolutely no one that knows me better
No one that can make me feel sooo goooood
How did we stay so long together?
When everybody, everybody said we never would
And just when I, I start to think they're right
That love has died...

[Chorus]
There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won't you do it and do it one time?
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo

I'm stuck on you
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we're stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we're stuck like glue

Some days I don't feel like trying
Some days you know I wanna just give up
When it doesn't matter who's right, fight about it all night
Had enough
You give me that look
"I'm sorry baby let's make up"
You do that thing that makes me laugh
And just like that...

[Chorus]
There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won't you do it and do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo

I'm stuck on you
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we're stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby were stuck like glue

Whutooo Whutoo

You almost stay out, too stuck together from the ATL
Whutooo Whutoo
Feeling kinda sick?
Just a spoon full of sugar make it better real quick

I say
Whutooo Whutoo
Whatcha gonna do with that?
Whutooo Whutoo
Come on over here with that
Sugar sticky sweet stuff
Come on give me that stuff
Everybody wants some
Melodies that get stuck

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo

Up in your head
Whutooo whutooo
Whuthoo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me together, say, it's all I wanna do
I said

[Chorus]
There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won't you do it and do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo

There you go making my heart beat again,
Heart beat again,
Heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid
Won't you do it and do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in,
Right back in
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo
I'm stuck on you

Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we're stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby were stuck like glue
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we're stuck like glue

غریب را دل سرگشته با وطن باشد

2010-11-10T21:54:00.001-08:00

خوش است خلوت اگر یار یار من باشد نه من بسوزم و او شمع انجمن باشد

من آن نگین سلیمان به هیچ نستانم که گاه گاه بر او دست اهرمن باشد

روا مدار خدایا که در حریم وصال رقیب محرم و حرمان نصیب من باشد

همای گو مفکن سایه شرف هرگز در آن دیار که طوطی کم از زغن باشد

بیان شوق چه حاجت که سوز آتش دل توان شناخت ز سوزی که در سخن باشد

هوای کوی تو از سر نمیرود آری غریب را دل سرگشته با وطن باشد

به سان سوسن اگر ده زبان شود حافظ چو غنچه پیش تواش مهر بر دهن باشد

20KG of FAT TRIMMED OF MY BODY

2010-10-20T11:35:00.000-07:00

Overcast Autumn

2010-09-21T20:26:00.000-07:00

no color is primary in the overcast fall

This is why it is beautiful

It makes me rethink about the beauty

maybe I was wrong about what beautiful means at all

I should just learn from the cloud that makes me see the sun in a different beautiful way

That cloud that casts the new perspective on my eyes

and I love the overcast weather because the light is shared

Final Shot

2010-09-13T12:30:00.001-07:00

Starry night

2010-09-12T21:01:00.000-07:00

“The night is bright, with a starlit sky, I sit and think, as time passes by. Oh starry night, with a moonlit sky, take me away, and tell me why. Give me a reason, for love's end, give me a reason, for why I lost a friend. I sit and think, all night l”

You take back what's been taken

2010-08-29T18:36:00.001-07:00

Yeah yeah yeah..
Hey

So, so you made a lot of mistakes
Walked down the road a little sideways
Cracked a brick when you hit the wall
Yeah, you've had a pocket full of regrets
Pull you down faster than a sunset
Hey, it happens to us all

When the cold hard rain just won't quit
And you can't see your way out of it

CHORUS
You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Love, it weather any storm
Bring you back to being born again
Oh, it's a helping hand when you need it most
A lighthouse shinning on the coast
That never goes dim

When your heart is full of doubt
Rascal Flatts Unstoppable lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com.com/rascal-flatts-unstoppable-lyrics.html
And you think that there's no way out

CHORUS
You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Like a river keeps on rolling
Like the north wind blowing
Don't it feel good knowing
Yeah

CHORUS
You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Love is unstoppale
So you made a lot of mistakes
Walked down the road a little sideways
Love, love is unstoppable

اتاق دکتر

2010-07-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

کاریکاتور آلبرت اینشتین رو که خود جواد علیزاده برام به اسم خودم امضا کرده بود، زدم رو در کمد تو اتاقش. کامپیوتر رو راه انداختم. شاید فکر می‌کردم که اگه یه آدم پیدا بشه که مثل اینشتین باهوش باشه و خوش اخلاق، باید فقط تو کاریکاتور جواد پیداش کرد. ولی‌ دکتر خودش تجسم کامل اون شخصی‌ بود که شاید من تو آرزو هام برای یک استاد راهنما در اون حد مهربون و با سواد تصورش نمیکردم. شاید با من خیلی‌ مهربون بود، چون سطح متفاوت رابطه‌ام با اون رو میدیدم. خیلی‌‌ها میگفتن تو خیلی‌ خوب مخ دکتر لوکس رو زادی ولی‌ من واقعا باراش احترام قائل بودم چون تعریفی که از یک انسان داشتم و خودم هیچوقت نتونسته بودم بهشون برسم رو تو اون میدیدم.

یک بار در مورد کریسمس صحبت کردیم باهاش و خیلی‌ با قامتی بر افراشته در مورد این که عید واقعیی‌ باید زمانی‌ باشه که طول روز شروع میکنه به بیشتر شدن باشه نه اول بهار، و جالب بود اینکه من گفتم خیلی‌ جالبه اینطوری هم میشه فکر کرد و اون گفت نه اصلش باید این باشه.

یادم میاد چند تا از این دانشجو‌ها رو دعوا میکرد که چرا تحقیقاتتون پیش نمیره و اونا هم دلایل خاص خودشون رو داشتند و البته حق هم با دانشجو‌ها بود ولی‌ وقتی‌ دکتر عصبانی‌ میشد میترسیدند بهش بگن چرا، جواد شریفی یکیشون بود. دفعهٔ بعد من به جواد گفتم چرا نمیگی بهش؟ گفت میترسم بیشتر دعوام بکنه گفتم نه اصلا خیلی‌ دکتر منطقیه. دقیقا هم همین شد به دکتر گفتیم که چرا این کار شدنی نیست و خیلی‌ جالب و سریع قبول کرد و دوباره با همون لبخندش سرشو به طرفی‌ کجع کرد و گفت شما درست میگید.

وقتی‌ براش یه داستانی تعریف میکردی چنان لبخند عمیقی بهت میزد که خودتم نمی‌فهمیدی چرا دکتر انقدر خوشحاله. بعضی‌ وقتا که میخندید نفسش بند میومد از ذوق خنده منم به خنده می‌گفتم من بارا دکتر نگرانم یه وقت خفه نشه انقدر میخنده. از اینکه جک بگم دکتر بخنده کلی‌ ذوق می‌کردم.

موقعیی‌ که اون سی‌دی هاش رو میذاشت تو کامپیوتر سر کلاس یه فولدر هم به اسم من بود تو اون لیست نیو فولدر‌های چندگانه ‌اش. بچه‌ها میگفتن اسم تو اینجا چی‌ کار میکنه، گفتم لابد از رو دسکتاپ همه رو کپی‌ کرده.

اون موقع یه سریال انیمه نگاه می‌کردم و عکسش‌ رو گذشته بودم دسکتاپ وال پیپر. قشنگ معلوم بود دکتر خیلی‌ خوشش اومده بود. شاید به خاطر این بود که میدید زیاد اهل سانسور کردن نیستم جلوش و از اینکه کارتن ببینم و اون بدونه ترسی‌ ندارم.

ملت هی‌ براش کتاب، نامه و پایان نامه میاوردن و اون هم ساده‌ترین کار رو میکرد همه رو میذاشت رو هم. ما کلی‌ مشکل داشتیم که آشغالا رو بریزیم بیرون از اتاقش. ۲ تا کمد از آزمایشگاه کنترل آوردم پایین و تز‌‌ها رو که ردیف رو هم تا سقف رفته بود گذشتم تو اون ۲ تا کمد. پرینترش رو خودم آوردم و یادمه گفت منم یه زمانی‌ ۱۰۰ کیلو بودم زورم مثل شما زیاد بود ولی‌ این کار رو نکنین پرینتر به این گندگی رو یه نفری نیارین.یه بار بعدش منو دید، گفت این کار شما باعث خیلی‌ کمک به من و دانشجو‌ها شده، هر کسی‌ هر پایان نامه‌ای رو میخواد من زود پیدا می‌تونم بکنم، گفتم دکتر من که گفتم کمد خیلی‌ بهتره :)

سال ۸۵، ۱۴ شهریور رفتم بهش گفتم، دکتر امروز روز تولّد شماست؟ گفت بله شما از کجا میدونی‌؟ گفتم فضولی کردم تو یکی‌ از رزومه‌ها دیدم، امروز روز تولّد من هم هست. براتون کمربند خریدم امتحان کنین ببینین خوبه یا نه. گفت اول بیاین تو با هم جشن بگیریم امروز رو. برام نسکافه ریخت و گفت شما تقریبا نصف من سنّ دارین و حتی کمتر. گفتم اره دکتر ۴ ۵ سال دیگه میشم نصفتون (ولی‌ هیچوقت سنّم به نصف سن دکتر نرسید).

از همه جالب تر امضا کردنش بود. هر چیزی میخواستی برات امضا میکرد بدون اینکه نگاه کنه روش چی‌ نوشتی‌، اعتمادش زیاد بود به بچه ها.

یه بار روز ۵امّ عید رفتم دانشگاه سال آخر بود که کار کنم و دیدمش. خیلی‌ خوشش اومد دید من و جمالی وسط عید هم اومدیم دانشگاه، اون آزمایشگاه گله گشاد کنترل یکی‌ از بهترین دوران زندگی‌ من بود با احمد پورصابری و شیرانی و علی‌ اسکندری و امیرحسین.

دکتر به شبکه اعتقادی نداشت، همیشه میگفت اکانت میهمان ایجاد کنین رو همهٔ کامپیوتر ها، یه روز صبح ظاهراً رفته دانشگاه دیده هیچ کامپیوتر‌ای اکانت میهمان نداره، شاکی‌ شده نصف ملت رو انداخت بیرون، من شانس آوردم رو کامپیوتر من اکانت میهمان بود. جالب بود اونروز که منو دید کلی‌ تحویل گرفت.

کارو لوکس

2010-07-10T11:14:00.001-07:00

مدت طولانی‌ می‌شه که من اصلا دیگه تو بلاگم فارسی‌ ننوشتم. دلیلش رو نمیدونم چیه، شاید دیگه مثل قبل مخم کار نمیکرد یا شاید انقدر احساسات درگیرم کرده بود که مجبور بودم اول با خودم کنار بیام و وقتی‌ از خلوص افکارم اطمینان حاصل کردم اینجا بنویسم. هر چی‌ که بود مدت طولانی‌‌ای بود.

به محض این که وارد دانشکده شدم، رفتم سراغ عکس اعضای هیأت علمی‌ دانشگاه و از بالا لیست فول پروفسور‌ها رو دیدم و اومدم پایین. اسم عجیب کارو لوکس رو دیدم و همچنین عکسش‌ رو. وقتی‌ اولین بار با خودش رو به رو شدم با عکسش‌ خیلی‌ فرق داشت. لبخندی که همیشه رو لبش بود با دیدن یه آدم غریبه کشش جالبی‌ ایجاد میکنه، مخصوصاً اگه با فرهنگ غرب آشنا نباشی‌. با خودم گفتم جالبه که همه هر چی‌ با سواد تر میشن خودشون رو بیشتر میگیرن ولی‌ این پروفسور تمام به من‌ای که اصلا نمیشناسه لبخند میزانه. تو قطب علمی‌ کنترل با آزمایشگاه به اون بزرگی‌ خیلی‌ ساده میره و میاد. با خودم گفتم من که سخت افزار خوندم خدا کنه یه جوری بتونم شاگرد این بشم مخصوصاً این که درس کنترل خطّی رو خیلی‌ دوست داشتم و اون درس دید من رو نسبت به زندگی‌ تغییر داده بود.

یک سال گذشت از اون روز که رفتم و با دکتر لوکس صحبت کردم در مورد این که دارم سخت افزار هوشمند رو به عنوان موضوع تزم میگیرم و نظرش چی‌ هست. یادمه که گفت "من باید برم بیرون الان" و منم گفتم خوب باهات راه میام و تا خیابون امیرآباد و سر گیشا باهاش پیاده رفتم و حرف زدم. دفعهٔ بعد رفتم گفتم من همین موضوع رو میخوام بردارم، گفت تو که یه بار بیشتر با من حرف نزدی ؟ گفتم باشه خوب میخوای نظراتم و دیدم رو بگم؟ باهاش حرف زدم و گفتم که یه بار تو تلویزیون در مورد کار ترکیبی‌ ربات‌های ساده برنامه ریزی شده چی‌ دیدم و چقدر برام جالب بوده. من اصلا باهاش درسی‌ نگرفته بودم ولی‌ بعد‌ها که درسش رو گرفتم فهمیدم این یکی‌ از مثال‌های مورد علاقش بود. دلیل این که خوب باهاش ارتباط برقرار می‌کردم ۳ چیز بود.

اول این که دکتر فخرایی از من چند سوال خیلی‌ عمیق در مورد شبکه عصبی پرسیده بود و من خیلی‌ دنبال عا‌ جواب گشتم و پیدا نکردم و کس دیگه هم نمیدونست و من هم نفهمیده بودم آخر جواب اون سوالات رو، سر کلاس اون س`ل رو پرسیدم ووو خیلی‌ دکتر خوشش اومد و گفت این دقیقا همون سوال‌ای هست که من انتظار دارم یکی‌ بپرسه، و جوابش رو داد. سر کلاس همیشه به کسی‌ نگاه میکرد که بیشتر از همه میشناختش، من مجبور بودم ۱ ساعت ونیم به چشاش نگاه کنم چون اون همش کسی‌ رو نگا میکرد که میشناخت.

دوم این که متاسفانه یا خوشبختانه من اگه از کسی‌ خوشم بیاد یا بدم بیاد ۲ سوت ابراز می‌کنم تو طرز برخوردم باهاش، من از دکتر لوکس به خاطره اخلاقش خوشم میومد و خیلی‌ وقت‌ها که حرفشو نمی‌فهمیدم اعتماد می‌کردم به این که اگه وقفهٔ ایجاد کنم تو حرفاش ناراحت نمی‌شه. خیلی‌ اوقات بهش می‌گفتم که به نظرم حرفش جور در نمیاد و نمیترسیدم از واکنش احتمالیش. دکتر زود عصبانی میشد اگه جلوش رو نمیگرفتی و همون موقع توضیح بهش نمیدادی که تفاوت در کجاست.

شاید مهم ترینش این بود که (البته بد‌ها فهمیدم) تولدمون تو یه روز بود و ما شبیه هم بودیم از نظر ستاره شناسی‌ لابد.

بهش گفتم که من کامپیوتر ندارم، اون هم که مرتب نبود هیچوقت یه پیسی خریده بود و هنوز راه ننداخته بود. گفت برو خوب تو اتاق من، من هم گفتم من که کلید ندارم، با همون لبخندش سرشو به طرفی‌ کجع کرد و گفت خوب برو کپی‌ بگیر. یادم میاد که اولین بار که رفتم اون تو از بس خاک رفت تو دهنم، دهنم پر از خاک شد. ۶ هزار تومن دادم به مستخدم‌ها و اتاقشو کامل تمیز کردیم و بعدش کامپیوتر رو راه انداختیم. خلاصه بد از ۶ ۷ ماه اومدم بیرون از اونجا ولی‌ یادم میاد که بچه‌ها حتی یه بار اومدن سیگار کشیده بودند اون تو و دکتر وارد شد ولی‌ چیزی نگفت.

Losing Family

2010-07-10T08:41:00.000-07:00

Losing Family.

"Losing family obliges us to find our family.

"Not always the family that is our blood...

"...but the family that can become our blood.

"Should we have the wisdom to open our door to this new family...

"...we will find that the wishes we had for the father, who once guided us...

"...for the brother, who once inspired us...

"The only thing left to say will be:

"'I wish I had seen this, or I wish I had done that, or I wish..."'

when I read these words...
...words of hope, dreams..           
...I realise that the one... 
...wish that was granted to me, 
...was the gift of friendship.

Shall I stay here at the Zoo, Or Should I go and change my point of view ?

2010-07-05T11:57:00.000-07:00

Winter's cityside,
Crystal bits of snowflakes all around my head and in the wind...
I had no illusions
That i'd ever find a glimpse of summer's heatwaves in your eyes.
You did what you did to me,
Now it's history I see
Here's my comeback on the road again.
Things will happen while they can,
I will wait here for my man tonight--
It's easy when you're big in Japan!

Are your big in Japan, tonight
Big in Japan, be tight
Big in Japan where( or "ooh"?) the Eastern Sea is so blue.
Big in Japan, all right, pay, then I'll sleep by your side
Things are easy when you're big in Japan, Are you're big in Japan

Neon on my naked skin
Passing silhouettes of strange illuminated mannequins
Shall I stay here at the zoo,
Or should I go and change my point of view for other ugly scenes?
You did what you did to me, now it's history all I see.
Things will happen while they can...
I will wait here for my man tonight, it's easy when you're big in Japan

Are your big in Japan, tonight
Big in Japan, be tight
Big in Japan, oh, the Eastern Sea is so blue.
Big in Japan, all right, pay, then I'll sleep by your side
Things are easy when you're big in Japan, are you big in Japan.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c98qdFQF7sw&feature=related

UT comencement Day 2010

2010-06-15T10:29:00.000-07:00

Wave it Baby

2010-06-11T21:07:00.000-07:00

Wavin' Flag lyrics

When i get older, they'll call me freedom

Just like a Waving Flag.

[Chorus]

When I get older, I will be stronger,

They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,

And then it goes back, and then it goes back,

And then it goes back

Born to a throne, stronger than Rome

but Violent prone, poor people zone,

But it's my home, all I have known,

Where I got grown, streets we would roam.

But out of the darkness, I came the farthest,

Among the hardest survival.

Learn from these streets, it can be bleak,

Except no defeat, surrender retreat,

So we struggling, fighting to eat and

We wondering when we'll be free,

So we patiently wait, for that fateful day,

It's not far away, so for now we say

[Chorus]

So many wars, settling scores,

Bringing us promises, leaving us poor,

I heard them say, love is the way,

Love is the answer, that's what they say,

But look how they treat us, Make us believers,

We fight their battles, then they deceive us,

Try to control us, they couldn't hold us,

Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers.

But we struggling, fighting to eat,

And we wondering, when we'll be free

So we patiently wait, for that faithful day,

It's not far away, but for now we say,

[Chorus] 2x

(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)

And everybody will be singing it

(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)

And you and I will be singing it

(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)

And we all will be singing it

(Ohhh Ohh Ohh Ohh)

[Chorus] 2x

When I get older, when I get older

I will be stronger, just like a Waving Flag,

Just like a Waving Flag, just like a Waving flag

Flag, flag, Just like a Waving Flag

breakeven

2010-06-07T09:58:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9yZ1uI5yPbY

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no

Good listeners are Rare

2010-06-05T16:32:00.000-07:00

CHANCES

2010-05-25T13:56:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lf2IqQ9SvmA

Chances are when said and done
Who'll be the lucky ones
Who make it all the way?
Though you say I could be your answer
Nothing lasts forever
No matter how it feels today

Chances are we´ll find a new equation
Chances roll away from me
Chances are all they hope to be

Don't get me wrong I'd never say never
Cause though love can change the weather
No act of God can pull me away from you

I´m just a realistic man
A bottle filled with shells and sand
Afraid to love beyond what I can lose when it comes to you
And though I see us through yeah

Chances are we´ll find two destinations
Chances roll away from me
Still chances are more than expectations
The possibilities
Over me
Eight to five, two to one
Lay your money on the sun
until you crash what have you done?
Is there a better bet than love?
What you are is what you breathe
You gotta cry before you sing

Chances chances

Chances lost are hopes torn up pages
Maybe this time
Chances are we´ll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken
And I can see
Chances are the fascination
Chances won't escape from me
Chances are only what we make them
And all I need

Guantanamera

2010-05-06T07:51:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDU5kAnHB8I&feature=related

Yo soy un hombre sincero
De donde crece la palma
Y antes de morirme quiero
Echar mis versos del alma
Guantanamera, guajira, Guantanamera

I am an honest man
From where the palm tree grows
And before dying I want
To share the verses of my soul.

Mi verso es de un verde claro
Y de un carmín encendido
Mi verso es de un ciervo herido
Que busca en el monte amparo
Guantanamera, guajira, Guantanamera

My verse is a clear green
And it is flaming crimson
My verse is a wounded deer
Who seeks refuge in the woods.

Cultivo una rosa blanca
En julio como en enero
Para el amigo sincero
Que me da su mano franca
Guantanamera, guajira Guantanamera

I cultivate a white rose
In July as in January
For the sincere friend
Who gives me his honest hand.

Y para el cruel que me arranca
El corazon con que vivo
Cardo ni ortiga cultivo
Cultivo la rosa blanca
Guantanamera, guajira Guantanamera

And for the cruel one
who would tear out this heart with which I live
I do not cultivate nettles nor thistles
I cultivate a white rose

Con los pobres de la tierra
Quiero yo mi suerte echar
El arroyo de la sierra
Me complace más que el mar
Guantanamera, guajira Guantanamera

With the poor people of the earth
I want to share my fate
The brook of the mountains
Gives me more pleasure than the sea

You are beautiful, but you are empty

2010-04-15T19:29:00.000-07:00

You are beautiful, but you are empty. One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you--the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered.”

Something's different

2010-04-14T14:19:00.000-07:00

I'm not alone, I wish I was.

Cause then I'd know, I was down because

I couldn't find, a friend around

To love me like, they do right now.

They do right now.

I'm dizzy from the shopping malls

I searched for joy, but I bought it all

It doesn't help the hunger pains

and a thirst I'd have to drown first to ever satiate

Something's missing

And I don't know how to fix it

something's missing

And I don't know what it is

At all

When autumn comes, it doesnt ask.

It just walks in, where it left you last.

And you never know, when it starts

Until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart:

Something's missing

And I don't know how to fix it

something's missing

And I don't know what it is

At all

I can't be sure that this state of mind, is not of my own design

I wish there was an over the counter test, for loneliness.

For loneliness like this.

Something's missing

And I don't know how to fix it

Something's missing

And I don't know what it is

No I don't know what it is

Something's different

And i don't know what it is

No I don't know what it is

Friends -check- Money -check-

A well slept -check- Opposite sex -check- Guitar -check- Microphone -check- Messages waiting for me, when i come home

-check-

How come everything I think I need, always comes with batteries

What do you think it means

How come everything I think I need, always comes with batteries

What do you think it means

You and I Both

2010-04-08T10:46:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XnrQeGzNnps

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede

well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

I just realized the taste of Racism

2010-04-05T18:33:00.000-07:00

http://www.navycs.com/blogs/2007/11/27/mapping-out-americas-racism

May God Bless Texas and all its Racist inhabitants :D

sneaking up

2010-04-01T09:22:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jne9t8sHpUc&feature=related

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Chorus

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought ... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
'Well isn't this nice...'
And isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Repeat Chorus

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

It's a traffic jam when you're already late
It's a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think
A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think...
Repeat Chorus

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

اي خورشيد مهربون

2010-03-24T11:19:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRtg4UlnplI

اي تو همزبون با من بمون
اي تو همصدا با من بخون
اي خورشيد مهربون
به ابر آسمون بگو به حال من بباره
شايد خبري باز دوباره
از يارم واسم بياره
تويي شور آواز من
تويي شوق پرواز من
تويي نغمه ساز من
تويي تو آغاز من
اي زندگي تو بگو نغمه سازم
بي تو شوري نداره
اين دل اسيرم از تو نگارم
طاقت دوري نداره

Unicorn in Moon Eclipse

2010-03-21T18:10:00.000-07:00

باید با بوی گل سرخ رفت جایی دلبازتر از کوچه ها

2010-03-21T11:35:00.001-07:00

مثل یکی رهگذر از کوچه ها می گذرم هر سحر از کوچه ها

آی نسیم سحری ، صبرکن ما را باخود ببر از کوچه ها

دلتنگم دلتنگ از خانه ها وز معبر، از گذر، از کوچه ها

آی نسیم سحری ، صبرکن ما را باخود ببر از کوچه ها

باید پل زد به خیابان عشق یک شب آسیمه سر از کوچه ها

باید با بوی گل سرخ رفت جایی دلبازتر از کوچه ها

آی نسیم سحری ، صبرکن ما را باخود ببر از کوچه ها

فردا مهمان شقایق شوم بگذرم امشب اگر از کوچه ها

فرجامم، دامنه ی دشت هاست خواهم رفت آخر از کوچه ها

آی نسیم سحری ، صبرکن ما را باخود ببر از کوچه ها

ترنم بهاری

2010-03-11T18:04:00.001-08:00

Moonlight

2010-03-11T17:40:00.000-08:00

“A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.”

Future

2010-03-10T16:09:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWhzd_1_jy0

me and all my friends
we're all misunderstood
they say we stand for nothing and
there's no way we ever could
now we see everything that's going wrong
with the world and those who lead it
we just feel like we don't have the means
to rise above and beat it

so we keep waiting
waiting on the world to change
we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

it's hard to beat the system
when we're standing at a distance
so we keep waiting
waiting on the world to change
now if we had the power
to bring our neighbors home from war
they would have never missed a Christmas
no more ribbons on their door
and when you trust your television
what you get is what you got
cause when they own the information, oh
they can bend it all they want

that's why we're waiting
waiting on the world to change
we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

it's not that we don't care,
we just know that the fight ain't fair
so we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

and we're still waiting
waiting on the world to change
we keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
one day our generation
is gonna rule the population
so we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

In the Air Tonight

2010-03-08T21:52:00.000-08:00

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord
And I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh Lord
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord, oh Lord

Well if you told me you were drowning, I would not lend a hand
I've seen your face before my friend, but I don't know if you know who I am
Well I was there and I saw what you did, I saw it with my own two eyes
So you can wipe off that grin, I know where you've been
It's all been a pack of lies

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord
Well I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh Lord
I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord
Well I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh Lord, oh Lord

Well I remember, I remember, don't worry, how could I ever forget
It's the first time, the last time we ever met
But I know the reason why you keep your silence UP, oh no you don't fool me
Well the hurt doesn't show, but the pain still grows
It's no stranger to you and me

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord
Well I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh Lord
I can feel it in the air tonight, oh Lord, oh lord
Well I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh Lord
I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord
And I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh Lord
I can feel it in the air tonight, oh lord, oh lord, oh lord
Well I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh lord, oh lord

I can feel it in the air tonight, oh lord, oh lord, oh lord, oh lord
And I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh lord, oh lord, oh lord
And I can feel it in the air tonight, Oh Lord...
I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, Oh Lord, Oh Lord

Marriage and Morals

2010-03-08T12:56:00.000-08:00

Civilized people cannot fully satisfy their sexual instinct without love.

Bertrand Russell

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

2010-03-04T23:10:00.000-08:00

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room.

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

For My only uncle who passed away on Friday :(

2010-03-03T09:40:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N2_G_JmN_Yg

سلام من به تو یار قدیمی

منم همون هوادار قدیمی

هنوز همون خراباتی و مستم

ولی بی تو سبوی می شکستم

همه تشنه لبیم ساقی کجایی

گرفتار شبیم ساقی کجایی

اگه سبو شکست عمر تو باقی

که اعتبار می تویی تو ساقی

اگه میکده امروز شده خونه تزوير

وای شده خونه تزوير

تو محراب دل ما

تويی تو مرشد و پیر

همه به جرم مستی سر دار ملامت

میمیريم و میخونیم سر ساقی سلامت

یه روزی گله کردم من از عالم مستی

تو هم به دل گرفتی دل ما رو شکستی

من از مستی نوشتم ولی قلب تو رنجید

تو قهر کردی و قهرت مصیبت شدو بارید

پشیمونم و خستم اگه عهدی شکستم

آخه مست تو هستم اگه مجرم و مستم

همه به جرم مستی سر دار ملامت

میمیریم و میخونیم سر ساقی سلامت

میگن مستی گناه به انگشت ملامت

باید مستها رو حد زد به شلاق ندامت

سبوی ما شکسته در میکده بسته

امید همه ی ما به همت تو بسته

به همت تو ساقی تو که گره گشایی

تو که ذات وفایی همیشه یار مایی

همه به جرم مستی سر دار ملامت

میمیریم و میخونیم سر ساقی سلامت

همه به جرم مستی سر دار ملامت

میمیریم و میخونیم سر ساقی سلامت

همه به جرم مستی سر دار ملامت

میمیریم و میخونیم سر ساقی سلامت

سر ساقی سلامت وای سر ساقی سلامت

سر ساقی سلامت وای سر ساقی سلامت

If I Had Eyes

2010-02-24T13:19:00.000-08:00

If I had eyes in the back of my head
I would have told you that
You looked good
As I walked away

If you could've tried to trust the hand that fed
You would've never been hungry
But you never really be

The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
Just stand still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
It won't let me in
Always looking out

Lot of people spend their time just floating
We were victims together but lonely
You got hungry eyes that just can't look forward
Can't give them enough but we just can't start over
Building with bent nails we're
falling but holding, I don't wanna take up anymore of your time
Time time time

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not all
Just stand still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
It won't let me in
Always looking out
Always lookin

Quote of the day

2010-02-22T19:57:00.000-08:00

The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can ever end.

Someday

2010-02-18T09:35:00.000-08:00

We play a game of touch and go
Your door is open but your heart is closed
I heal your hurts and pay the price
You walk away, you don’t think twice

Maybe I’m just a fool
Who answer’s when you call
Baby, who else will shelter you,
When the rain begins to fall

Someday you’ll coming running to me
When you know it’s a prison, being free
Someday you’ll stop chasing your dreams
Someday you’ll come running

Too much of you, I live without
Our bodies speak, but not our mouths
I can see his shadow in your eyes,
But I don’t ask where you’ve been tonight

I always pick up the pieces
Everytime you fall apart
Baby, you know that I keep tripping
On the pieces of my heart

Someday you’ll coming running to me
When you know it’s a prison, being free
Someday you’ll stop chasing your dreams
Someday you’ll come running

When the wind blows colder,
No one to care, no one to hold you
Love’s not a road of no returning
Just look around
The fires still burning

Someday you’ll coming running to me
When you know it’s a prison, being free
Someday you’ll stop chasing your dreams
Someday you’ll come running

I don't need to be forgiven

2010-02-14T23:46:00.000-08:00

Out here in the fields
I fight for my meals
I get my back into my living.

I don't need to fight
To prove I'm right
I don't need to be forgiven.
yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah

Don't cry
Don't raise your eye
It's only teenage wasteland

Sally, take my hand
We'll travel south cross land
Put out the fire
And don't look past my shoulder.

The exodus is here
The happy ones are near
Let's get together
Before we get much older.

Teenage wasteland
It's only teenage wasteland.
Teenage wasteland
Oh, yeah
Its only teenage wasteland
They're all wasted!

Tidal Wave

2010-02-08T14:48:00.000-08:00

I wish I could cross my arms
And cross your mind 'cause I believe
You'd unfold your paper heart
And wear it on your sleeve

All my life I wish I broke mirrors
Instead of promises
'Cause all I see is a shattered conscience
Staring right back at me

I wish I had covered all my tracks completely
'Cause I'm so afraid
Is that the light at the far end of the tunnel
Or just the train?

Lift your arms, only Heaven knows
Where the danger grows and it's safe to say
There's a bright light up ahead
And help is on the way, help is on the way

I forget the last time I felt brave
I just recall insecurity
'Cause it came down like a tidal wave
And sorrow swept over me

Depression, please cut to the chase
And cut a long story short
Oh, please be done, how much longer
Can this drama afford to run?

Fate looks sharp, severs all my ties
And breaks whatever doesn't bend
But sadly then, all my heavy hopes
Just pull me back down again

I forget the last time I felt brave
I just recall insecurity
'Cause it came down like a tidal wave
And sorrow swept over me

Then I was given grace and love
I was blind but now I can see
'Cause I found a new hope from above
And courage swept over me

It hurts just to wake up
Whenever you're wearing thin
Alone on the outside
So tired of looking in

The end is uncertain
And I've never been so afraid
But I don't need a telescope
To see that there's hope
And that makes me feel brave

Flame

2010-02-03T12:46:00.000-08:00

http://z.cs.utexas.edu/wiki/flame.wiki/FrontPage

already gone

2010-02-01T14:26:00.000-08:00


Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone

2010-01-30T19:18:00.000-08:00

"It takes courage to love, but pain through love is the purifying fire which those who love generously know. We all know people who are so much afraid of pain that they shut themselves up like clams in a shell and, giving out nothing, receive nothing and therefore shrink until life is a mere living death."

Hugging My LOVE

2010-01-28T09:47:00.000-08:00

Love is so short, forgetting is so long

2010-01-27T10:17:00.000-08:00

“The crime of loving is forgetting.”

2010-01-27T10:08:00.000-08:00

“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.”

2010-01-26T11:52:00.000-08:00

“I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.”

2010-01-25T17:13:00.000-08:00

http://blog.ted.com/2006/09/paradox_of_choi.php

2010-01-25T16:46:00.000-08:00

http://www.ted.com/talks/helen_fisher_tells_us_why_we_love_cheat.html

do you see everything?

2010-01-23T11:31:00.000-08:00

“The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget.”

“Extreme hopes are born from extreme misery.”

2010-01-23T11:22:00.001-08:00

“When I was a kid I used to pray every night for a new bicycle. Then I realised that the Lord doesn't work that way so I stole one and asked Him to forgive me.”

Crying for Van Gogh

2010-01-16T09:55:00.001-08:00

FireFlies

2010-01-16T09:21:00.001-08:00

I sold this for 60$ :D

2010-01-16T09:17:00.001-08:00

2010-01-06T09:27:00.000-08:00

“He who cannot give anything away cannot feel anything either.”

2010-01-04T10:35:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q29YR5-t3gg

Father
It's not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
You're still young, that's your fault,
There's so much you have to know.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but I'm happy.

I was once like you are now, and I know that it's not easy,
To be calm when you've found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Why, think of everything you've got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again.
It's always been the same, same old story.
From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen.
Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

Father
It's not time to make a change,
Just sit down, take it slowly.
You're still young, that's your fault,
There's so much you have to go through.
Find a girl, settle down,
if you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but I'm happy.
(Son-- Away Away Away, I know I have to
Make this decision alone - no)
Son
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
It's hard, but it's harder to ignore it.
If they were right, I'd agree, but it's them They know not me.
Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.
(Father-- Stay Stay Stay, Why must you go and
make this decision alone?)

2010-01-03T13:53:00.001-08:00

Then he sighed and spake thus to his heart:
"Would that I were wiser! Would that I were wise from the very heart, like my serpent!
But I am asking the impossible. Therefore do I ask my pride to go always with my wisdom!
And if my wisdom should some day forsake me:
alas! it loveth to fly away!-
may my pride then fly with my folly!"

2010-01-03T11:25:00.000-08:00

2010-01-03T11:20:00.000-08:00

vanilla twilight

2010-01-03T11:12:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aENY16Mjw6k

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Fireflies

2010-01-03T09:25:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zr9EKJatJvA

“Events are the ephemera of history; they pass across its stage like fireflies, hardly glimpsed before they settle back into darkness and as often as not into oblivion. Every event, however brief, has to be sure a contribution to make, lights up some dark corner or even some wide vista of history."

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

2010-01-01T12:00:00.000-08:00

There may be a great fire in our hearts, yet no one ever comes to warm himself at it, and the passers-by see only a wisp of smoke

2009-12-30T23:49:00.000-08:00

For Now we see through a looking glass, darkly
but then face to face
now I know in part
but then shall I know even as also I am known?

My Lonely Rose

2009-12-28T23:26:00.000-08:00

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly
Just a little change
Small to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast

Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will rise

Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong
Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast

Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast

Purity

2009-12-26T22:02:00.000-08:00

Wisdom is the province of the aged, but the heart of a child is pure

“But some emotions don't make a lot of noise. It's hard to hear pride. Caring is real faint - like a heartbeat. And pure love - why, some days it's so quiet, you don't even know it's there.”

Simply Elegant

2009-12-25T17:47:00.000-08:00

“Contempt for happiness is usually contempt for other people's happiness, and is an elegant disguise for hatred of the human race”

“Things are pretty, graceful, rich, elegant, handsome, but until they speak to the imagination, not yet beautiful”

“Wisdom doesn't automatically come with old age. Nothing does - except wrinkles. It's true, some wines improve with age. But only if the grapes were good in the first place.”

2009-12-15T13:24:00.001-08:00

“Maybe I'll learn a trade. I've considered taxidermy. I always thought it was a shame you couldn't do that on people.”

Somewhere over the rainbow

2009-12-14T09:52:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6U_bqIMkI4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gkOW6OvqsxY

Oooooooooooooooooh
Oooooooooooooooooh
Oooooooooooooooooh
oooooooooh oooooooh
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dream of once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dream of
Dreams really do come true

Someday I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemondrops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why oh why can't I

Well I see trees of green and red roses too
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well I see skies of blue and
I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark
And I think to myself what a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow
So pretty in the sky
and also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying
How do you do
They're really saying I, I love you

I hear babies cry and I watch them grow
They'll learn much more then we'll know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
world...

Someday I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemondrops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Oh somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dare to
Why oh why can't I...

Ooooooooooooooooooh
Ooooooooooooooooooh
Oooooooh Oooooooooh

Someday you'll find me too

2009-12-10T11:29:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zt_7s-Nv2W4

Lonely the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go be strong

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Cœur ouvert
A l'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se lève

Suis ton étoile
Va jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois, si tu crois, si tu crois
En toi

Suis ta lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fond de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois, que je crois, que je crois
En toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I know that it's true

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

portrait

2009-12-09T09:31:00.000-08:00

you said , you had feelings
you said it was beautiful
it seems you miss it
it seems I miss it too

But what was it that I miss
?
you
?
me
?
us
?

I think it was what I saw of me in you
I might miss those moments that I created and presented to you
I can create them again
I can
Cause:
“Every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist, not of the sitter.”

I will draw another portrait although I might not have the same feelings then

2009-12-08T23:46:00.000-08:00

love is not a victory march/ it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

2009-12-06T17:49:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01nV-IfC98M

I've heard there was a secret chord
that David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, Do you?
It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor Fall, The major lift,
The baffled king composing, hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to a kitchen chair, she broke your throne
she cut your hair and from your lips she drew the hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe there's a God above
And all I ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
It's not a cry you can hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe I've been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
love is not a victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know
What's real and going on below
but now you never even show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
I don't even know the name
But if I did, well really, what's it to you?
There's a blaze of light
In every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though
It all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah
…

OPEN THE GATES

2009-12-05T20:34:00.000-08:00

Another Gate is opened to me
It is scary but I found the gate to open
:)

To My New Friend :)

2009-12-03T00:18:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40K55oszGho

You ask me where to begin
Am I so lost in my sin
You ask me where did I fall
I'll say I can't tell you when
But if my spirit is lost
How will I find what is near
Don't question I'm not alone
Somehow I'll find my way home

My sun shall rise in the east
So shall my heart be at peace
And if you're asking me when
I'll say it starts at the end
You know your will to be free
Is matched with love secretly
And talk will alter your prayer
Somehow you'll find you are there.

Your friend is close by your side
And speaks in far ancient tongue
A seasons wish will come true
All seasons begin with you
One world we all come from
One world we melt into one

Just hold my hand and we're there
Somehow we're going somewhere
Somehow we're going somewhere

[interlude]

You ask me where to begin
Am I so lost in my sin
You ask me where did I fall
I'll say I can't tell you when
But if my spirit is strong
I know it can't be long
No questions I'm not alone
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home

The Loneliness of Autumn

2009-11-30T12:06:00.001-08:00

MY X

2009-11-29T23:20:00.000-08:00

“A cigarette hanging from the lips of a woman is as sexy as a missing tooth on her smile.” Carvel · Paul Carvel

Nice Guy Syndrome

2009-11-26T07:37:00.000-08:00

Nice guys quite often help women who are losers, they have neurosis and personality problems. These guys think that by "helping" these women, it will make him a better, more loveable person. She will appreciate and love him. Then when she turns around and treats him like shit, he then says: "This is what I get for being a nice guy!"

http://www.romancestuck.com/articles/niceguy.htm

Big Mac

2009-11-24T16:39:00.001-08:00

“I know a girl who broke up with a guy and she told him she wanted to ’still be friends.’ He said, ‘No thanks.’ She wondered why he couldn’t fall back to being just friends after they had a romantic relationship. I came up with the ‘McDonalds Analogy’ to try and explain it in a simple way that would help all women understand this tough question.

Imagine if you went to McDonalds a lot and ordered a Big Mac Combo meal. A Big Mac, Large Fries and a Coke. You really like this meal. One day, you pull up to the drivethrough and order the Big Mac Combo meal and the girl tells you, ‘I’m sorry – you can have the Big Mac and the Coke, but you can’t get fries with that anymore.’ You think about this for a moment, and sure – the Big Mac is the centerpiece of the meal, but McDonalds has some really good fries and you like their fries with your meal. So you say, ‘I’ve been able to get fries with that before, why can’t I have fries with my Big Mac combo anymore?’ The girls says, ‘Well, I just think it is better if you only have the Big Mac and the Coke from here on out.’

At this point, a lot of guys are going to go to Wendy’s or BK and see if they can get fries with their combo at that drivethrough window. But there are some guys who REALLY like McDonalds Big Macs and they might think, ‘If I keep coming here and ordering the Big Mac and Coke, maybe she’ll change her mind and give me some fries with that later.’ So they will keep on getting the combo without the fries until the deal breaker happens: One day that guy is going to order the Big Mac and Coke and then he’s going to pull up a little bit to pay, and someone else is going to pull up to the drivethrough speaker and order the ‘Big Mac Combo’ and he is going to hear the girl say, ‘Would you like fries with that?’

That’s why guys don’t like to be friends with a girl who breaks up with them.”

2009-11-23T15:29:00.000-08:00

THANK YOU FOR EXISTING

2009-11-14T18:37:00.001-08:00

Italian

Più bella cosa

com’è cominciata io non saprei
la storia infinita con te
che sei diventata la mia lei
di tutta una vita per me
ci vuole passione con te
e un briciolo di pazzia
ci vuole pensiero perciò
lavoro di fantasia

ricordi la volta
che ti cantai
fu subito un brivido sì

ti dico una cosa
se non la sai
per me vale ancora così

ci vuole passione con te,
non deve mancare mai
ci vuole mestiere perché
lavoro di cuore lo sai

cantare d’amore non basta
mai, ne servirà di più
per dirtelo ancora
per dirti che
più bella cosa non c’è
più bella cosa di te
unica come sei
immensa quando vuoi
grazie di esistere...

com’è che non passa con
gli anni miei la voglia
infinita di te, cos’è quel
mistero che ancora sei
che porto qui dentro di me

saranno i momenti che ho
quegli attimi che mi dai
saranno parole però
lavoro di voce lo sai

English

Più bella cosa

HOW DID IT START, I DONT KNOW,
MY ENDLESS STORY WITH YOU
YOU’VE BECOME MY GIRL
FOR ALL MY LIFE FOR ME
THERE IS PASSION WITH YOU
AND LITTLE BIT OF MADNESS
I CARE FOR YOU
AND WORK ON FANTASY

REMEMBER THE TIME
WHEN I SANG FOR YOU
IT MADE US SHIVER

I TELL YOU ONE THING
IF YOU DONT KNOW IT
FOR ME ITS STILL THAT WAY

THERE IS PASSION WITH YOU
IT WILL NEVER BE MISSED
THERE IS KNOWLEDGE BECAUSE
I WORK FROM THE HEART YOU KNOW

SINGING ABOUT LOVE IS NEVER ENOUGH
IT WILL USE ME
TO TELL YOU STILL
TO TELL YOU THAT
THERE IS NOTHING MORE BEAUTIFUL
MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN YOU
UNIQUE LIKE YOU ARE
ENDLESS WHEN YOU WANT IT
THANK YOU FOR EXISTING

HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT WITH THE YEARS
MY INFINITE DESIRE WONT GO AWAY
WHAT IS THIS
MISTERY THAT YOU ARE
THAT I TAKE HERE INSIDE ME

COULD BE THE MOMETS THAT I HAVE
THOSE MOMENTS YOU GIVE TO ME
COULD BE THE WORDS BUT
I WORK WITH MY VOICE YOU KNOW

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zi0Z5-rRUKs

Human Contradictions

2009-11-12T12:59:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZf_lo0Ux_8

Sono umane situazioni
Quei momenti fra di noi
I distacchi ed i ritorni
Da capirci niente poi
Gia come vedi
Sto pensando a te...si..da un po'

They're just human contradictions
Feeling happy feeling sad
These emotional transitions
All the memories we've had
Yes, you know it's true
I just can't stop thinking of you

No I just can't pretend
All the time we spent could die
Wanna feel it again
All the love we felt then

Confinanti di cuore solo che ognuno sta
Dietro gli steccati degli orgogli suoi
Sto pensando a te
Sto pensando a noi

Sono cose della vita
Vanno prese un po' cosi

Some for worse and some for better
But through it all we've come so far

Gia... come vedi
Io sto ancora in piedi perche

Sono umani tutti i sogni miei
Con le mani io li prenderei, si perchÃ¨

What's life without a dream to hold??
Take my hand and never let me go

It's part of life together
But what future does it hold??

Sono cose della vita
Ma la vita poi dov'e

Yes, you know it's true
I just can't stop thinking of you

Questa notte che passa piano accanto a me
Cerco di affrontarla, afferrarla

If our hearts miss a beat
Or get lost like a ship at sea
I wanna remember, I can never forget
Can't stop thinking of you

Sto pensando a noi

Can't stop thinking of you
Can't stop

And, above all, don’t let yourself get paralyzed by your own criticism

2009-11-10T16:07:00.001-08:00

So Cruel

2009-10-27T19:17:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6snI72LGfP4

We crossed the line
Who pushed who over
It doesn't matter to you
It matters to me

We're cut adrift
But still floating
I'm only hanging on
To watch you go down
My love

I disappeared in you
You disappeared from me
I gave you everything you ever wanted
It wasn't what you wanted

The men who love you, you hate the most
They pass right through you like a ghost
They look for you but your spirit is in the air
Baby, you're nowhere

Oh...love...you say in love there are no rules
Oh...love...sweetheart...
You're so cruel

Desperation is a tender trap
It gets you every time
You put your lips to her lips
To stop the lie

Her skin is pale like God's only dove
Screams like an angel for your love
Then she makes you watch her from above
And you need her like a drug

Oh...love...you say in love there are no rules
Oh...love...sweetheart...
You're so cruel

She wears my love like a see-through dress
Her lips say one thing
Her movements something else
Oh love...like a screaming flower
Love...dying every hour...love

You don't know if it's fear or desire
Danger the drug that takes you higher
Head in heaven, fingers in the mire

Her heart is racing, you can't keep up
The night is bleeding like a cut
Between the horses of love and lust
We are trampled underfoot

Oh...love...you say in love there are no rules
Oh...love...sweetheart...
You're so cruel

Oh...love...to stay with you I'd be a fool
Sweetheart...you're so cruel

Nothing to prove

2009-10-22T19:16:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmC5aRFb-Vs&feature=player_embedded#

You taught me how to ride a bike
Tie my shoes and fly a kite
How to swim, and how to fish
To see a star and make a wish
Said its okay to make mistakes
Just dont get stuck in yesterday
Forgive, forget, and move ahead
Because life is what you make of it
Now Youre gone, and all I have
Are memories I hold deep
But if Im quiet, I hear youre voice
Still ringing in my ears

Saying live with no excuses
Love with no regrets
Laugh a lot and leave this life
With nothing left unsaid
Make this world a better place
Dont be afraid to cry
And when its finally time, to say goodbye
Nothing to prove, nothing to lose
Nothing to hide

You see, life can not be measured by
The place you live, the car you drive
The thing that counts the day you die
Is who you are, and whats inside
So tell the truth, dont ever lie
Integrity at any price
Your words, your bond, your highest price
So guard it close, and live your life
So many things, I learned from you
Bout῾ life and love and play,
But I learned more by how you lived
Then what I heard you say

So I live with no excuses
And I love with no regrets
I laugh a lot, and I leave this life
With nothing left unsaid
Make this world a better place
Don't be afraid to cry
And when its finally time, to say goodbye
And when its finally time, to say goodbye
And when its finally time, to say goodbye
Theres nothing to prove, nothing to lose
Nothing to hide

Triangular love

2009-10-19T22:58:00.000-07:00

http://psycnet.apa.org/journals/rev/93/2/119.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Triangular_theory_of_love

it takes just a few months to realize how fucked up things are
after a while you realize that you were naive in many cases
you desired impossible
you were fragile
if you knew how you think and how you must think you would live a much better life
finally reaching maybe the same point of conclusion but with less scratches on your hear

Welcome to the Future

2009-09-28T23:17:00.000-07:00

When I was ten years old,
I remember thinkin' how cool it would be,
When we were goin' on an eight hour drive,
If I could just watch T.V.

And I'd have given anything
To have my own PacMan game at home.
I used to have to get a ride down to the arcade;
Now I've got it on my phone.

He-e-ey...
Glory glory hallelujah.
Welcome to the future.

My grandpa was in World War II,
He fought against the Japanese.
He wrote a hundred letters to my grandma;
Mailed em from his base in the Philippines.

I wish they could see this now,
Where they say this change can go.
Cause I was on a video chat this morning
With a company in Tokyo.

He-e-ey...
Everyday is a revolution.
Welcome to the future.

He-e-ey...
Look around it's all so clear.
He-e-ey...
Wherever we would go and well we...
He-e-ey...
So many things I never thought I'd see...
Happening right in front of me.

I had a friend in school,
Running-back on a football team,
They burned a cross in his front yard
For asking out the home-coming queen.

I thought about him today,
Everybody who's seen what he's seen,
From a woman on a bus
To a man with a dream.

He-e-ey...
Wake up Martin Luther.
Welcome to the future.
He-e-ey...
Glory glory hallelujah.
Welcome to the future.

Burned Heart

2009-08-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes my heart broke into pieces
I tried to glue it back together

Sometimes my heart turned into a stone
I tried to melt it with the heat of passion

This time my heart is burned
nothing left but ashes of what I devoted to people
Ashes remained of my passion
Ashes remained from my memories
Ashes remained from my feelings that
I presented to people through my honest hands

How can I have another heart
?
Maybe I should wait for another birth

Or maybe I should be ashes myself so I and my heart feel reunited

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4J-23XKYXk

دروغ بده، دروغ چرا

2009-08-13T14:00:00.000-07:00

دروغ بده، دروغ چرا

ما هم خدا رو ندیدیم

اما تو کوچه‌های شهر

یه شب صداشو شنیدیم

2009-08-06T09:49:00.001-07:00

2009-07-10T22:40:00.001-07:00

در این ماه‌های اخیر لال مونی گرفتم و هیچ چیزی ننوشتم. احساس خفگی بهم دست میداده. از طرفی‌ هم مشغول یادگیری تکنیک‌های نوشتاری در زبان انگلیسی بودم و داشتم مطلب علمی‌ مینوشتم به یک زبان بیگانه.

احساساتم هم زیاد کنترل شده نبوده و بنابرین نمیتونستم رو یک چیزی تمرکز کنم؛ و طبق معمول خاصیت نوشتاری خودم، بیش از اندازه آنالیز کنم.

حدودا یک ماه می‌گذره از قضیه انتخابات و من خسته شدم از این همه سر درد و سایر مورد. احساس خفگی بهم دست میده. دوست دارم مثل یک خرس قطبی به خواب زمستونی برم و تنها باشم.

The Best Picture I have Seen recently

2009-06-10T18:12:00.000-07:00

خدا مرده است اما اعصار بسيارى طول مى کشد تا افسانه اش هم بميرد.

2009-05-04T19:05:00.000-07:00

http://iris2m.blogspot.com/2009/05/blog-post.html

کفر لغت ديگرى است براى آزادى انديشه. /گراهام گرين/

-کسی که برای اولین بار ایده از طرف خداوند آمده ام را مطرح کرد، انسان هوشمندی بود./اروپیدس 484 قبل از میلاد/

-من نمى توانم خدائى را تصور کنم که مخلوقات خود را پاداش يا کيفر مى دهد؛ که اهدافش طبق مقاصد ما انسانها شکل گرفته/آلبرت انیشتین/

-قبل از اينکه براى آمدن باران به درگاه خدا نماز بياورى، بهتر است برنامه هواشناسى را تماشا کنى./مارک تواین/

-مذهب، تخيل است و پايه قدرتش در اين است که در محدوده تمايلات ذاتى مان واقع مى شود/زیگموند فروید/

-صريح و روشن بگويم: من مسلمان نيستم. من هيچوقت جرم ارتداد را نپذيرفته ام چون هيچگاه بعنوان يک انسان بالغ و عاقل در زندگى ام هيچ نوع اعتقاد دينى را برسميت نشناخته و اعلام نکرده ام. کسى نمى تواند نسبت به عقيده اى که هيچوقت نداشته، مرتد شود و بخاطر آن مجازات شود. بسيارى از مسلمانانى که مورد احترام من هستند، از اين مساله که به محض تولد به اسلام متعلق مى شوند و اگر تصميم گرفتند آن را برنگزينند مرگ در انتظارشان خواهد بود، وحشت خواهند کرد./سلمان رشدی/

-اگر 70میلیون نفر به یک چیزاحمقانه اعتقاد دارند، آن چیز همچنان یک چیز احمقانه است./آنتوان فران/

-اگر بخواهیم تنها با قوانین احتمالات قضاوت کنیم، قدرت دعاها صفر است./جودیث هیز/

-مذهب جنايت مقدس است./لاادری/

-کسانی که میتوانند تو را باورمند به چرندیات بکنند، میتوانند تو را مجبور به انجام کارهای وحشیانه کنند./ولتر/

-"هرچقدر میوه های دانش بیشتر در اختیار انسان قرار گیرد، همانقدر باورهای مذهبی از بین خواهد رفت./زیگموند فروید/
دين، خودآگاهى انسانى است که هنوز خود را نيافته يا خود را باخته و از دست داده است./کارل ماکس/

-میلیون ها انسان نمازخوان و دعا گزار هر روز عاجزانه با تمنا و التماس از خدا چيزى را تقاضا مى کنند: "خدايا اين کار را برايم بکن"، "من اتوموبيل نو مى خوام"، "شغل بهتر مى خوام"، "اين را به من بده"، آن را به من بده". اما مشکل اين است که اگر خدا به دعاها و عجز و التماس شما جواب نداد چه؟ حتما مى گوئيد خواست خدا بوده. اين طور تشخيص داده .... خوب مگر مريضيد که به درگاه او دعا و التماس مى کنيد و وقت خودتان را تلف مى کنيد؟/جورج کالین/

-! خدا مرده است اما اعصار بسيارى طول مى کشد تا افسانه اش هم بميرد./نیچه/

"God is Dead; but given the way of men, there may still be caves for thousands of years in which his shadow will be shown. And we — we still have to vanquish his shadow, too."

اپیدمی روشنفکری ایسم

2009-05-01T00:49:00.001-07:00

در این هفته با توجه به این که تحت فشار شدید از جانب پروژه‌ها بودم از هر فرصتی برای تنفس استفاده افزون میبردم.

از طرفی‌ شیرین عبادی اومده بود دانشگاه ما و فرصت رو مغتنم شمردم. آدم‌های زیادی از هر قشری اومده بودند. یک کمی‌ که دقیقتر نگاه می‌کنم میبینم تو همین آمریکا یا تو همین دانشگاه همه جور قشری رو میتونی‌ پیدا کنی‌. اینم از اون حرفای تکراری بود که همه جا میشنوی پس بی‌ خیال.

با خود شیرین عبادی حال کردم. دلیل اصلیش این بود که مثل مامانم بود. هم تپل بود هم کوچولو هم مثل مامانم حرف میزد. دلیل دیگش این بود که آدمی‌ به سن و سال اون از ایران ۲ سالی‌ میشه که ندیدم. ولی‌ تکه کلماتش و طرز صحبتش هم دلیل دیگه‌ای بود که بیشتر منو به خودش جذب میکرد.

کلا دخترانی که علوم انسانی‌ می‌خونن خوش سر و زبون هستن و میشه باهاشون هم خوب دعوا کرد هم خوب جر و بحث کرد هم خوب صحبت کرد. دلیل اصلیش هم اینه که تنها چیزایی که ما در موردش صحبت می‌کنیم با این جور دخترا رشتهٔ تحصیل ایشون بوده و البته علاقهٔ شخصیشون.

حالا که ایشون چی‌ گفت و اینکه ۹۰% حرفاش رو من میدونستم گفتن نداره ولی‌ باز هم میگم خوشم اومد ازش ( که البته این هم مهم نیست که من خوشم بید یا نه).

ملتی‌ که اونجا نشسته بودند رو می‌تونم به جرات بگم کسایی‌ رو که من میشناسم حتی هر چی‌ زور زدم نفهمیدم به جز این که بیاند فضولی و با این خانوم عکس بگیرن برا چی‌ اومدن.

امروز برای بار دوم رفتم سر یک سخنرانی‌ دیگش که در مورد روابط ایران و آمریکا بود و باز هم حرف تکراری به خورد ما داد. و اصلا از قضیه کنترا صحبتی‌ نکرد که اینم عجیب بود و آخرش رفتم بهش متذکر شدم که اینو نگفتی.

همهٔ اینا رو نوشتم که تازه برسم به اصل مطلب.

من نمیفهمم ایرانی‌‌ها چرا بدتر از من عقدهٔ خود کوچیک بینی‌ دارند و میخوان به همه بگن که تو همه چی‌ از همه بهترند. خودمم کم و بیش اینطوری‌ام ولی‌ اقلاً من میدونم که چه مرگمه.

تقی‌ به طوقی خرده با گرین کارت پا میشند میان آمریکا فکر میکنند آدم شدند. چون اینجا زندگی‌ کردند و از رو خرشانسی یا این که داداش ننشون یا آبجی باباشون اینجا بوده اومدن اینجا شدن عند تکنولوژی و چون سوار تویوتا کمری میشند. خودشون رو با اونی‌ که تو ایران تویوتا کمری داشته یکی‌ میکنند. پس فردا هم ۴ تا کلمه که اینجا شنیدند از زبان این خانم رو میان تحویل دیگران میدند که بگن روشنفکر شدند.

شیرین عبادی تو قاب عکس اتاقشون یا آلبوم عکسشون خوب جا پیدا میکنه. من که قبول ندارم همه خوبند. ولی‌ همه میخوان خودشون رو خوب نشون بدن. یکی‌ از دلایلی که من نمیخوام خودمو خوب نشون بدم اینه که نمیخوام شبیه این جماعت باشم.

تا ۲ روز پیش با حجاب کامل اسلامی در تمامی محیط‌های اینترنت حضور داشتند حالا با مایو ۲ تیکه اینور اونور میرند. به قول یکی‌ از همین آدم‌ها که باهاش دوست شدم بعد فهمیدم چه گهی خوردم. میگفت من میرم ترکیه مایو ۲ تیک میپوشم ولی‌ جلو تو که دوست پسرمی تاپ هم نمیپوشم چون اونجا ترکیه است اینجا ایران.

خلاصه من به این نتیجه رسیدم که بعضی‌ از اینا رو باید بعضی‌ وقتا سر جا نشوند چون بعضی‌ وقتا مزاحمتشون جانکاه میشه.

بیچاره‌ها بعضی‌‌هاشون رو که از ایران میشناسم خودشونم میدونن که هر چی‌ اینجا فیلم بازی کنند ما میدونیم از کدوم قماشی هستند. این بدبختا خودشونم میدونن که به گوز بندند و به چس پیوند.

یا رب مباد آنکه که گدا معتبر شود

که گر معتبر شود ز خدا بی‌ خبر شود و روشنفکر شود

کاشکی‌ ما هم با جیجی بوفون عکس مینداختیم با طرز تفکر این جماعت احمق ما هم دروازه بان تیم ملی‌ ایتالیا میشدیم لابد

یادتون باشه ۴۰ سال هم که اینجا زندگی‌ کنین شما همون ایرانی‌ هستین. اگه بخواین به دیوار تغییر ماهیت نزدیک بشین همون گهی هم که بودین دیگه نیستین. میشید بی‌ شرف

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I see what beautiful is about When I'm looking in Not when I'm looking out

2009-04-28T21:44:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah
Yeah oh yeah

The only ground I ever owned was sticking to my shoes
Now I look at my front porch and this panoramic view
I can sit and watch the fields fill up
With rays of glowing sun
Or watch the moon lay on the fences
Like that's where it was hung
My blessings are in front of me
It's not about the land
I'll never beat the view
From my front porch looking in

There's a carrot top who can barely walk
With a sippy cup of milk
A little blue eyed blonde with shoes on wrong
'Cause she likes to dress herself
And the most beautiful girl holding both of them
And the view I love the most
Is my front porch looking in, yeah

I've traveled here and everywhere
Following my job
I've seen the paintings from the air
Brushed by the hand of God
The mountains and the canyons reach from sea to shining sea
But I can't wait to get back home
To the one he made for me
It's anywhere I'll ever go and everywhere I've been
Nothing takes my breath away
Like my front porch looking in

There's a carrot top who can barely walk
With a sippy cup of milk
A little blue eyed blonde with shoes on wrong
'Cause she likes to dress herself
And the most beautiful girl holding both of them
Yeah the view I love the most
Is my front porch looking in

I see what beautiful is about
When I'm looking in
Not when I'm looking out

There's a carrot top who can barely walk
With a sippy cup of milk
A little blue eyed blonde with shoes on wrong
'Cause she likes to dress herself
And the most beautiful girl holding both of them
Yeah the view I love the most

Oh, the view I love the most
Is my front porch looking in
Yeah
Oh, there's a carrot top who can barely walk
(From my front porch looking in)
A little blue eyed blonde with shoes on wrong, yeah
And the most beautiful girl
(Beautiful girl
From my front porch looking in)
Holding both of them
Oh, yeah