Courage and Fear

“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.”

Ambrose Redmoon quotes

In My Secret Life

I saw you this morning.
You were moving so fast.
Can’t seem to loosen my grip
On the past.
And I miss you so much.
There’s no one in sight.
And we’re still making love
In My Secret Life.

I smile when I’m angry.
I cheat and I lie.
I do what I have to do
To get by.
But I know what is wrong,
And I know what is right.
And I’d die for the truth
In My Secret Life.

Hold on, hold on, my brother.
My sister, hold on tight.
I finally got my orders.
I’ll be marching through the morning,
Marching through the night,
Moving cross the borders
Of My Secret Life.

Looked through the paper.
Makes you want to cry.
Nobody cares if the people
Live or die.
And the dealer wants you thinking
That it’s either black or white.
Thank G-d it’s not that simple
In My Secret Life.

I bite my lip.
I buy what I’m told:
From the latest hit,
To the wisdom of old.
But I’m always alone.
And my heart is like ice.
And it’s crowded and cold
In My Secret Life.

The End

I know, it’s the end of my torments

I ever fought against time

I always lived in regressive moments

This is my time’s deadline

I had many emotions during my life

Although it had been lived it in reverse

I had few but good friends, richness

And a beautiful and ever loved wife

Some people didn’t believe in my age

They will never know the contrary experience:

live from an old to a baby, always changing image

I keep way from their laughs and fault of sense

Now, my days after days are monotonous

From the kindergarten I’m leaving for,

I feel fear from other older children

And I don’t get to learn classes more...

I am seeing the Sun, it seems like an orange

It run all sky and hills, strong, high, brilliant!

Nana shows me trees and the sounds that range.

Soon I see a monster: Elyphant! Elyphant, Elyphant!

Nana calls me and leaves me to jump over the bed

I take a cane and I hit the floor, chairs and tables

And I say to my lead soldiers: Fight! Fight! Fight!

Life passes and I’m living the moment like in the fables

Old and young ladies want to kiss me

And I refuse ’cause life passes quickly

“Like a bridge over troubled water” and I see

the retroactive watch running very fastly...

The man who was here went away

and my eyes are sleepy...

I don’t have dreams, only remembrances

[“Mother you had me

But I never had you”]

I’m leaving for other dimension

I’m feeling forever young

forever young!

And now I can see my soldiers

In San Juan Hill.

Let’s go men!

Fight! Fight! Fight!

Until Victory!

Now I’m seeing my unforgetable Hildegard

- I always will love you my sweet Hildegard,

Ever and ever, forever I’ll love you!

And now I’m passing by the old Button’s house

On Monroe Street...

I am seeing my grandfather:

He seems a shadow in my eyes...

Nana touches softly my face

I don’t know if the milk

is warm or cool

I’m no hungry. Thanks Nana...

I only feel the smell of the milk

Like blossoms in the field...

I’m in regressive time. Time is over!

All is ephemeral, including life!

[“Everybody is talking at me:”

We are passengers from this agony...]

Now my heart beats faster and stronger...

I ‘m seeing all dark around me

I hear only echoes of my mind

Life stops and stares... Time is over!

Goodbye, my love,

Goodbye . . .